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| a bit of me |
| I am a friendly, and kind girl with a wicked sense of humour and a very big heart. Well usually I am… I can also be the cow who isn’t afraid to say what others are only thinking. I am also called a transsexual, but that's none of your buisness anyways. |
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| 2007-07-01 23:14:00 |
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| Come to an End. |
| 2007-05-15 11:18:00 |
Since announcing I would be deleting this site, I have received a lot of letters asking me not to, but after much thought and consideration, I have decided to go ahead and delete my blog by the end of June. Just two years from when I started it.I’m sorry for this, but the time has come. I tried to keep it going but my life has changed so much in the last two and a half years and I am no longer the person I was when I started this blog. I’m at the start of a new life, and it’s time for me to put the past where it belongs, and to move on.I do want to thank all of you who have been with me for the last two years. It is all your letters and comments, which have made this site worth all the time and effort. You came into my life at a time when I was starting down a very difficult and...
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| Delete |
| 2007-05-11 13:02:00 |
It’s just been brought to my attention some of my photos have once again been posted on another tranny site. Whenever this happens, I get a lot of unwanted attention. I’ve been harassed by perverts, and had my photos stolen and used in fake profiles, pay-per-view sites, and worst of all, photo-shopped with some loser guys face on my body. Obviously, there are people who do not respect my privacy or need for discretion. So, due to continuing problems with my photos and info being stolen and misused, I will soon be deleting this blog, and my profiles from any other site I am on. I will also block any t-girl or chaser who adds me as a contact on flickr unless they are a personal friend.I’m sorry it has come to this as I’ve met some great people here, but my privacy and safety is ...
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| Just a quick question. |
| 2007-04-17 11:34:00 |
I was just wondering what time the clock on this page says for you? I set it to Vancouver time, but does it actually show that, or does it show your local time?084544My life as I transition from a boy to a girl and the mess I make along the way....
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| Nice to know |
| 2007-04-07 11:15:00 |
It’s nice to find not everything written about me on the internet is bad.Read it here!I am so flattered, the room just turned red from my blushing.082919My life as I transition from a boy to a girl and the mess I make along the way....
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| I’m surrounded by idiots. |
| 2007-04-05 04:26:00 |
I have been living in this house for only two months and already I’m sick of the place.It was bad enough living here with a dead beat, stinky, thief of a roommate who is the son of the other roommate, but once he turned 18, his dad kicked him out, so I thought things would get better. Then in an act of stupidity, the dad spent a third of the rent money getting his truck, which he had failed to register, out of impound. I told him I hoped his truck was big enough for all his shit because it just cost him his home. So in a panic, he finds someone on “Craig’s Lists” who needs a place to live, and sight unseen, the roommate said “ok” to this mystery person. Well this person, turned out to be two people, one of which does not work.Great! How am I supposed to do in-calls now?The...
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| Umm... No Thanks. |
| 2007-03-16 09:16:00 |
I missed a phone call while I was in the shower today. When I checked with my answering service, there was a message from the Jerry Springer Show asking me to call them back.Whatever it’s for, it can’t be good.I’m not calling.079144My life as I transition from a boy to a girl and the mess I make along the way....
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| Did you try eating a sandwich? |
| 2007-03-09 04:12:00 |
Like I said in my previous post, I’m 178 cm tall and weigh 53 kilos, (5’8” and 117), and my BMI is about 17% which is now too thin to model in Madrid, (Aww, crap!). I’ve always been thin and probably always will be and nothing I do will change that. However, some people have asked me if I’m starving myself to stay thin.Here’s the deal. Whenever I eat out with friends, which is usually every day, I like to go to the washroom after eating so I can wash up a bit. This is where the suspicion comes from. My friends see me stuff my face with all kinds of crap, then watch me run off to the washroom to “wash up”. To the suspicious mind, it might seem as though I’m in there barfing up my dinner. Then to make things worse, I also have acid r...
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| Stupid Body Image! |
| 2007-03-05 10:46:00 |
As you can see from my photos, I’m a skinny girl. I’m 178 cm tall and I weigh 53 kilos, (that’s 5’8” and 117 lbs for you Americans). I’ve always been thin and probably always will be and nothing I do will change that.Now some of you might think “Lucky bitch”, and it’s understandable. After all, we live in a society where the skinny girl image is rammed down our throats as the ideal image. It’s everywhere! The magazines, fashion shows, TV shows, and movies usually hire women who are super skinny. We’re also told that fat is bad. We’re getting fatter and fatter and soon we’ll all be dying of heart attacks in our 20s and putting a huge strain on the health care system. With all this negative and unrealistic imagery all around ...
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| Friends? |
| 2007-02-23 12:02:00 |
What’s with all this “friends” stuff on the Internet?It seems every time I log onto one of my profiles or websites, I have a list of people who have added me as a “friend”. I have so many damn friends, it’s ridiculous, and most of them I don’t know from the computer monitor on my desk. Yet some of these people will talk to me like we’ve gone into battle together.I understand that using the word “friends” is suppose to make the internet more personal, and “friendly”, but seriously, aren’t we over using the friend thing? I'm of the type who likes to make friends in person. The Internet is too easy to hide behind and I find so many people are not who they make themselves out to be. In fact, I know people who I would rather have kept...
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| In your face! |
| 2007-02-20 12:03:00 |
Wow!Look at this!I found it on Post Secret.076421My life as I transition from a boy to a girl and the mess I make along the way....
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| Hang on! I'll be right back! |
| 2007-02-17 12:39:00 |
Ok, I’m going to update soon. I’ve just been real busy with stuff.For a chick with no job, how come I can never find time to update this thingy?For those keeping score, I’ve moved out of the ex’s place and am now living with four roommates, and two dogs. Well, I was. Within my first week here, two of the roommates moved out, a third was admitted to a psychiatric hospital, and one of the dogs ran away.And now the last roommate is complaining the remaining dog “keeps fucking staring at me!”I’m off to a good start.Hey! I just updated!076051My life as I transition from a boy to a girl and the mess I make along the way....
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| Possibly done. |
| 2007-02-01 01:01:00 |
My posts have become far and few these past months. It’s not that things haven’t been note worthy. I’m just not really interested in keeping this blog going anymore. It could be due to where I am in my life. The lack of progress and all the stress associated with the mess I’ve made for myself. If so, then once things improve, I may want to blog again. It’s just hard to imagine right now.Maybe I’ll come back here, or maybe I’ll delete the whole thing and start a new life somewhere else.074146My life as I transition from a boy to a girl and the mess I make along the way....
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| Surprises! |
| 2006-12-30 23:22:00 |
I had a great Christmas. It was a holiday full of surprises. Things, which were totally unexpected, were happening.First, Chuck sent me an electrolysis machine. Not the battery operated kind, but a house power model. It’s pretty intimidating and I’m afraid to use it on my face, but it will come in handy for other areas.Then, a few days later, another package arrived. At first I thought it was another one from Chuck, but then I saw the name “Bobbie Jean” and the waybill. Bobbie Jean is a friend of Chucks, and we have exchanged a couple of e-mails, but we have never met, so I was a bit surprised to get a package from her. When I opened it, I was even more surprised. It was a new digital camera! I couldn’t believe it! I love photography but since my other camera broke I haven’t be...
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| Creeps in Cars |
| 2006-11-23 09:15:00 |
I use to walk home late at night from the bar I performed at in Calgary, and this was when I first learned of the hassles girls get from guys after dark. They would pull up and ask if I wanted a ride, or lurk around corners and “psst” me, or call out, “Come here” when I walked by. It boggled my mind. Did these guys actually expect me to jump in their car, or to come over when they call out from the shadows? How stupid do they think girls are? Does this ever work for them, and if so, what kind of girl falls for it?I never had any serious problems though, so when I decided to walk home late last night after being out with some friends, I wasn’t too worried.I went down Broadway, so I knew I would be pretty safe because Broadway is a busy thoroughfare with lots of traffic, and lots o...
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| Melancholy |
| 2006-10-28 10:20:00 |
It’s raining and I’m bored. I have nothing to do but sit here, watch the rain, and think. Not too hard though. I’m too tired for that. Well, not really tired. Just uninspired. Mmm, maybe not. More like, retrospective. Retrospective in an uninspired way. Kinda like, melancholy.I don’t feel like writing much lately. I haven’t had much to say anyways. At least nothing positive. Looking back at my posts from a year ago, I can see my life has made no progress. So I don’t have anything new to write about. Just more complaining.I stopped going to the support group. I didn’t go to the group for support but rather to lend it and seeing as how I’m in such a funk lately, I wouldn’t have anything positive to contribute. So no point in br...
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| I lost it |
| 2006-10-10 05:42:00 |
Oscar and I were invited to a friend’s birthday dance party. The theme was “fabulous”. Perfect I thought as I haven’t felt fabulous in about eight months and had been itching to dress up and enjoy a night out. So I was really looking forward to it.I knew what I was going to wear. My black knee length skirt with pinkish piping spiralling from the waist to the handkerchief hem. A shiny black tank top and black, strappy heels with black stockings and black leg warmers slouched low over my ankles and the heels of the shoes. It’s a hot outfit and I always feel sexy when I wear it.The night was going to be a blast! I was so excited.Then came the dreaded shaving of the face. Yes, I still have facial hair. I’ve had six or seven lasering treatments already but I still have to shave eve...
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| Good for Nothing |
| 2006-09-28 23:21:00 |
This trans horseshit is sure annoying. Why does it have to be such a big issue? It should be once you are diagnosed, you get treatment. We shouldn’t have to prove to anyone that we are serious and MSP should cover it. All of it. Without question. Why not? Other people get their shit covered.If I smoked for 30 years and gave myself cancer or emphysema, the bastards would be spending all kinds of money treating me for something I knowingly and deliberately did to myself and I wouldn’t have to wait two years nor would I have to beg for “permission” from shrinks.Instead, because we were born with a congenital defect, a condition that we don’t want, did not bring on ourselves, and tried all we could to avoid, we have to beg for help from people who treat us as charity cases and who hu...
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| I'm not deaf so STOP YELLING AT ME! |
| 2006-09-20 09:11:00 |
Well, it’s been an eventful summer. Medically I mean. I found out I won’t need hip replacement surgery any time soon. The pain is caused by an over stressed muscle trying to straighten my slightly swayed back. What does this mean? It’s not a disease and doesn’t need medication or surgery. It’s mechanics and can be treated with strength training.That was good news because I was really stressing about it. I have more than enough scars and the thought of a long ugly one on my thigh did not appeal to me at all.I then had a bone scan to check for a fracture in my right hand. It was sore for quite a while after a fight I was in last summer. It took eleven months to get the scan so any break would have healed up long ago.YaY for timely access to health services!I also had ear s...
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| Dawson College Shooting |
| 2006-09-13 23:17:00 |
Oscar’s mother, who is an instructor at Dawson College in Montreal, is ok. She wasn’t hurt in the attack on the school earlier today.Oscar hasn’t actually talked to her though. She left a message on her answering service saying she was fine. She was suppose to tour the school at the time of the shooting, with some friends who are visiting from Isreal, but the plans changed and she went to the gym instead.Early reports said there was more than one gunman but this turned out to be false. Witnesses say the shooting started outside before the gunman entered the school.About 19 people were injured and a 19 year old girl was killed. The lone gunman was shot in the arm by police. He then retreated into a corner and ...
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| 20 Centimetres |
| 2006-09-01 02:00:00 |
I was invited to attend the screening of 20 Centimetres at the closing gala of the Vancouver Queer Film Festival. I had no idea what the movie was about but judging by the title, and the nature of the film festival, I was pretty sure it had something to do with a penis.I wasn’t mistaken.Now I go to a lot of movies. Sometimes three or four a week and sometimes I’ll see the same movie twice in the theatre. Rarely though, does a movie affect me like 20 Centimetres has. Perhaps because of all the parallels I can draw from the movie and my own life.Here's how the Vancouver Queer Film Fest describes 20 Centimetres.Marieta, (Mónica Cervera) a narcoleptic pre-op transsexual, has a pesky problem. Mightily endowed with a 20-centimetre member (that's e...
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| Inspirational Representation |
| 2006-08-09 09:17:00 |
Check out my friend Dee’s website.Dee is an absolutely gorgeous woman from the Philippines who is also a transsexual and an activist in her country. She recently represented the Philippines in the Gay Games in Chicago and the Out Games in Montreal and it sounds like her visit was an empowering event for her. She was invited to appear at a press conference where she spoke on behalf of the transsexual women’s plight to be counted as women first, and the struggles we have to go through just because we are transsexuals.Here is an excerpt from an article Dee was interviewed for.Dee sees the Gay Games as a way of redefining herself more simply, in spite of how others perceive her. "Transsexual comes after my being a woman, so that should be my main experience," she said, "then a woman of col...
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| blood |
| 2006-07-15 12:02:00 |
I thought about going to a park today.I wanted to find a big tree with lots of leaves.So I could lay down in the shade of the tree.Rest my head in the grass, and look up into the sky.I would see the clouds go by.And hold my hands high in the sky trying to touch them.I would breathe the air.And watch the blood run down my arms as I shield my eyes from the sun.Instead, I went to Wendy’s.I had a Big Bacon Classic with fries and a Coke.Biggie size.I thought it might help me feel better.But the clerk called me sir.I wrote this just two weeks ago. A bit melodramatic I know, but I wrote this with sincerity. It is the way I felt. I actually went to the park that day, that is how bad I was. But as you can tell, I did come home.I am not in that place anymore althou...
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| Trouble Maker |
| 2006-05-25 01:55:00 |
Holy Hell!Did I ever start a battle over my last post! Check out some of the comments. And look at the fur fly over at Club Tz!It seems that when ever I mention the differences between TS women and the CD/TV culture, a bunch of CDs and TVs will get up in arms about how “we are all the same”. I’ve had this battle before so I knew what to expect.It’s no biggy. And my opinion stands.But I will admit that I did more to be a part of the problem than part of the solution. Not in spite though. I’m just stubborn.So to bore you all, (and to post something as it’s been quite a while since my last one), here is my closing argument. ___________I have said time and again that I have many friends who describe themselves as crossdressers, transvestites, and drag queens. And I always refer to,...
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| A Girl Like Me |
| 2006-05-11 11:39:00 |
Last April, Oscar, my friend Summer, and I were hired to work on the LifeTime film, "A Girl Like Me: The Gwen Araujo Story". It’s the true story of Gwen Araujo. A transgendered girl who was murdered by four guys when they found out about her birth sex. It’s a sad story, but the point of this post is not to talk about the murder of Gwen. Enough has been said already and for me to add anything would be redundant. Instead, I want to tell of our experiences on set those three days.We were hired for this movie as the “token” transsexual representation. After all, if your going to make a movie about trans people, you should at least have some trans people. There were actually quite a few of us that I didn’t know, so I made some new friends.It was ...
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| Regrets |
| 2006-03-19 09:36:00 |
Well it would seem that my days as an escort are numbered. In fact, as of today, I have nine days left. Then I will be moving in with my boyfriend and looking for a normal job which I am looking forward to as it feels like what a normal person would do as being an escort while living with my boyfriend would not be normal. Not that being an escort is normal.I do have my regrets though.I will miss the freedom. The freedom of being my own boss. The freedom to work when I wanted. The freedom to take as much time off as I want. The freedom to spend my days doing what ever I wanted. The freedom of knowing that I didn’t answer to anyone.But worse of all is knowing I haven’t accomplished any of the goals I had originally set out to do. Last year, after paying all my bills, I still had $22 00...
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| History of Haily |
| 2005-11-09 05:22:00 |
I recently saw a movie that I had worked on a few years ago. And when the credits rolled I saw my old name. I don’t like seeing my old name in film credits. I wish that I had used my real name. Unfortunately, it’s to late to have them changed. Haily was an established name but my transition was still a secret so I would use my boy name for work. Which, in hindsight, is a little silly. The film industry is a pretty safe place to transition. Turns out there are quite a few trans people working in the industry. This isn’t surprising. The industry has always attracted open-minded people. But I didn’t feel safe enough at the time.Oh well...Some people say that I should honour the memory of my past by keeping the references the same. But I don't want my old memories to be referred to as ...
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